Post-miscarriage rollercoaster

Because I get so many hits on my site from others who are struggling with miscarriage, I feel compelled to continue blogging about my journey.  I have suffered back-to-back miscarriages this year, a spontaneous miscarriage on August 1 followed by a subchorionic hematoma on October 7 that terminated my pregnancy by October 15.  My DH and I decided to take a break from trying to conceive until we could perhaps discover a reason for the repeat back-to-back miscarriages.  I am now at a point where 66% of my pregnancies (2 of 3) have failed.  I am now considered high-risk for future miscarriage by my care providers.  Some care-providers don’t even sneeze at 2 miscarriages, but I’m glad that mine have been proactive even if they don’t agree on the causes and potential remedies for my problems.

On Thursday I had an herbal consultation with a direct-entry midwife (DEM).  She may become my midwife in the future, but for now we’re working to get my body back on track.  She suspects that dysfunction in one or more of my regulatory systems is preventing me from sustaining my pregnancies.  The systems/organs that seem to be out of whack include endocrine, thyroid, liver, and adrenal.  This lines up with the feedback I get from my chiropractor every week.  She has recommended an herbal tincture comprised of vitex, auralia berry, black cohosh, and a couple of other things.  I should stay on this treatment for three months before becoming pregnant.  Then the tincture would need to be adjusted as some of the herbs are not recommended for pregnancy. 

On Friday I finally had my follow-up appointment with the OB who managed my miscarriage.  She is not the careprovider with whom I planned to establish, but at this point, I’d rather continue care with her should I need assistance from a medical provider.  She’s a nice gal and very supportive of natural childbirth.  She helped my friend deliver her baby vaginally during a placental abruption.  Anyway, she recommended some blood tests (antibody and anticoagulant) and consented to testing my thyroid as well.  She doesn’t believe I have a luteal phase defect even though my last cycle was only 26-days long and I bled in the middle of the cycle.  (I bled during ovulation when I got pregnant this last time too.  The herbalist thinks I may have a progesterone deficiency.)  Instead of doing progesterone tests, she would recommend an edometrial biopsy.  Eeek!  I really haven’t been satisfied with the information I’ve found on the internet.  I’ll probably consent to one if I have another miscarriage, but I think I’ll give these herbs some time to work.  The OB does not recommend chromosomal testing at this time.  If anything conclusive arises from the blood tests, I will post the information here.

That’s it in a nutshell.  The holidays are tough – I have a number of friends who are pregnant or have just had new babies.  I expected to have a cute pregnant belly about now.  I never would have thought I’d be grieving two lost babies this Christmas.  I do have plenty to be thankful for – my amazing husband and lovely little girl, a good job, a loving family, wonderful friends, empowering and humbling advocacy work through ICAN, and a good life.

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4 responses to “Post-miscarriage rollercoaster

  1. Much love to you this holiday season Kimberly. I know how tough it is this time of year, and being around our friends & loved ones who are pregnant or with little ones can be very emotional. It’s okay to feel as you do, and even better to vocalize it. You can call me day or night if you need me. I am here for you. I am glad your DEM is working with you to help your body heal and my prayers are that the new year brings you happiness and a larger family. Oh and a HBAC…did you remember to ask Santa for one of those?

  2. Thanks for the support, Jeannine. I really appreciate you taking the time to keep up with my weblog . . . everything YOU have going on!

    LoL! I’ll remember to ask Santa for a HBAC. Yeah . . .

    love to you and your beautiful family!

  3. It’s been a long time now but your blog spoke to me. I too had a loss due to a SCH in Jan. of 2007. You are so right that a SCH miscarriage is a very rough m/c. ( not that any loss is anything less than rough–but physically wow it was a doozy.) I also have had a VBA2C so your blog spoke to me for that reason as well. Did you have a baby after your loss? I hope so. (((HUGS))) I did not but I think about it all the time. The loss really took so much out of me and we did not try for another baby. I have some regret now but I guess life is filled with some regret.

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