Pregnancy Depression? Anxiety? Stress?

I am in my 9th week of pregnancy when calculated from my LMP.  This is still a vulnerable time for me even though I have passed both miscarriage dates/points and am visibly pregnant.  I still worry every day about the health of this baby and if I might yet lose it.  Perhaps my fears are irrational, but they are real – they are with me – and I am certain that in part they are driven by hormones.

What else is hormonally driven is my mood, for lack of a better term.  I am prone to tearfulness, exasperation, anger, and the like.  I’m feeling quite emotionally volatile, and I’m having a difficult time maintaining an even, positive disposition at work.  A student or two comes unprepared for lessons and I read them the riot act.  Do they deserve it?  Hell yeah, but I’d probably be less likely to throw down the law were I not so emotionally sensitive right now.  Today I show up for a faculty meeting, and my colleague’s face is all twisted and sour.  My other colleague and I can tell that she’s pissed off about something, but instead of telling us which one has offended her, she just spends an hour giving dirty looks and being sour.  I must admit that my entire day has been thrown off.  This colleague has been so NASTY and ANGRY lately, and it’s really affecting my quality of “life” at work.  I am in such a bad spot emotionally today that I went home at 11:00am, cancelling two students’ lessons (which I hate hate hate to do).  I was on the verge of tears in front of my 11:00 student which added to my anger.

I suffer from depression on a regular basis.  I have, what was diagnosed a number of years ago, chronic mild depression.  Even though I am pregnant, I am still on a decreased dose of depression medication.  So, I am not surprised that my depression and anxiety may be exacerbated at times.  Look what I found today via google alerts:

A whole year, including pregnancy, childbirth and time after childbirth – is time of big psychological and physical changes. Women need both emotional and physical support during this period.

During pregnancy women can experience quick mood swings that are caused not only by hormonal changes, but also physical and psychic transformations. During pregnancy women can experience depression more often. However, this mostly depends on emotional importance they attach to pregnancy, their attitude to change of shapes, care of themselves during whole period of pregnancy.

The rest of the article doesn’t really apply to me so much, but if you’d like to read 6 ways of prevention for pregnancy depression, click here.  I was so glad to find that paragraph today of all days when I am feeling so low and worthless and anxious and depressed that I can’t even function at work.  I share this in case someone else ever feels the same way when pregnant and trying to balance personal and professional demands.

5 responses to “Pregnancy Depression? Anxiety? Stress?

  1. Pingback: Pregnancy Depression? Anxiety? Stress? : Anxiety-Stress

  2. In my first pregnancy, I felt I needed to tell my boss when I was only 5 weeks pregnant – although I really didn’t want to share it with anyone until I was *sure* about it – simply because I was visibly close to bursting into tears at a staff meeting, and I didn’t want her to think I was insane. :)

    I’m sorry you had one of those especially difficult days. Get plenty of rest and be easy on yourself. Hormones can kick your butt all over town. Hey, just look forward to those lovely new-mommy, breastfeeding hormones! They’re just as powerful, right? (((((HUGS)))))

  3. glad i found this blog…I am 9 1/2 weeks along with my 3rd child. (I have 4 1/2 yr old twins girls.) I am severely depressed. Spending 10+ hours somedays in bed, curtains drawn, in complete silence. I feel like my world is caving in on me, and my body is being invaded by aliens. Even with a supportive husband, who has taken leave of absence to run my salon for me, I still feel overwhelmed. I have lost my will to even function in my day-today activities. I just can’t be bothered. Saw my doctor today, he is referring me to a psychiatrist. Afraid to get on meds, but afraid to be in this funk…

  4. A depression during pregnancy is horrible. Clinical data as a treatment of depression during pregnancy that is efficacious, reliable, safe and with minor side effects is an urgent unmet clinical need. so I was very lucky when I learned about the publication of this study:

    http://medicine.journalfeeds.com/psychiatry/j-clin-psychiatry/a-randomized-double-blind-placebo-controlled-study-of-light-therapy-for-antepartum-depression/20110504/

    So you might give it a try!

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