Completed Miscarriage

My ultrasound this afternoon confirmed what I already knew: that I lost the pregnancy yesterday and that I have a fibroid.  The ultrasound technician confirmed what I recently learned – that I was misdiagnosed last week with a blighted ovum.  Not only was it too early to diagnose a blighted ovum, but the presence of the yolk sac means that it was NOT a blighted ovum.  Likely the large subchorionic hematoma lead to the eventual miscarriage.

It’s been a rollercoaster ride of a week: threatened miscarriage, started a new chapter of ICAN, stayed in bed and hid from the world, put off all responsibilities onto other people’s shoulders, posted, researched, prayed, cried, hope, despair, loneliness, overwhelmed, frustrated, angry, confused, trusting, untrusting, and the list goes on and on.

So what’s next for me?  A make-over?  I dunno.  I’ve consented to having the OB monitor my pregnancy hormone levels down to 0.  Then I will have more bloodwork done to see if there’s anything more serious wrong with me.  The fetal tissue will be sent for pathology analysis.  I’ll keep teaching.  I’ll get back to singing.  No choices there.

I’m putting a lot of time and energy into ICAN.  I feel good about that.  I’m in the process of planning a sneak preview of The Business of Being Born.  I’ve been getting a lot of great support from ICAN leaders for both the preview and the start of this new chapter.  And Barranca Productions put me in touch with a woman here in town who was looking to schedule a screening of The Business of Being Born.  Now she’s working with me to help me make it happen.  I’m so thankful to have connected with her and can’t wait to meet her!

What else?  Well, I have a big Halloween Party to attend next weekend.  I may also attend a public discourse conference in Bozeman.  This weekend we were invited to a brunch hosted by the President of the University and to the game, but instead I plan to be at the Farmers’ Market promoting ICAN of Greater Missoula and our inaugural event!


4 thoughts on “Completed Miscarriage

  1. I am so sorry. I was hoping, really hoping everything would be okay. I hope the testing gives you some answers that can help for next time. Please take good care of yourself. I think the ICAN work could be the best thing for you right now – enjoy it!

  2. I hope I’m not out of bounds to post a comment though you’ve never met me. I have been reading your blog for a week now and I just wanted to say I’m so sorry to read of your miscarriage. My heart goes out to you.

    I had a miscarriage before getting pregnant with my second son. It was such a horrible experience and I still wonder about the child that I never got to meet. I don’t care how early a miscarriage is, that baby was real and whole to me. I wouldn’t have my son if that pregnancy had stuck, and I cannot imagine one second of my day without that little boy. He was meant to be here, but that doesn’t mean I still don’t think about that little baby I lost and feel sad. Just try to remember there is a little baby waiting for you in the stars.

    I am also living in Montana and a strong VBAC advocate, you are doing wonderful things and I thank you from the bottom of my heart!


  3. I am sorry for your loss, Miscarriage is one of the worst things that can happen to a mother.

    Hormonal problems, infections are also the risk factor of miscarriages. The hormonal problems include low progesterone levels, high LH levels, or thyroid abnormalities.

    Environmental hazards such as exposure to radiation, toxic substances, smoking, alcohol consumption, drug use, malnutrition, and intake of extreme caffeine can also lead to miscarriages.

    Chronic illness is another risk factor where diseases such as kidney problems, high blood pressure, diabetes, and systemic lupus may lead to miscarriages.

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