I bled a little bit on Wednesday. I have bled more today – not actively, but enough to make me worry.
We had an ultrasound at 2:30pm this afternoon. I should be around 10 weeks and 2 days pregnant. The ultrasound revealed a 7 week gestational sac and non-viable 6 week 5 day embryo. I’ve been carrying around a dead embryo for a few weeks now.
I’m devastated. My husband is devastated. I don’t know how to go on. I just want to crawl into a hole and hide from the real world. I don’t want to deal with my toddler – my beloved miracle child. How f$!^ed up is that?
I don’t think of myself as only having one child. Perhaps that’s our destiny.
We have a repeat ultrasound with the OB group that managed the last miscarriage on Monday. I will likely have a D&C as that is the best way to assure that the pregnancy remnants are preseved for testing. The slab of tissue I presented to the OB last time was not useful.