I’m a bit of a wreck today. I seem to get pretty antsy and stressed out before OB visits anymore. Hmm, wonder why. Anyway, I have an ultrasound scheduled tomorrow to check on my healing from the hysteroscopic myomectomy that was performed in August. The myomectomy was supposed to remove a fibroid from the uterus and uterine muscle. However, the surgeon found NOT a fibroid but an adenomyoma, endometrium growing in the muscle layer. He’s not sure how much he was able to remove.
I must admit that I’m not feeling terribly confident. I think I’m feeling less discomfort during ovulation from before, but that’s the only noticeable positive change. I had one ok period followed by a horrific one in September where I was bleeding and clotting so heavily, and of course, I was busy at a conference at that time. This last cycle only lasted 22-24 days. I started spotting on the 22nd day and started heavy flow on the 24th day. Bummer. My progesterone must really suck.
I suppose the two possible outcomes for tomorrow are: (1) things look healed, so go for it, or (2) things don’t look so great. I wonder how distorted my uterus still is? I wonder if the myoma really had anything to do with my losses? If things don’t look great, will that mean another surgery? Or will it just mean more agonizing waiting?
And then what? I can’t hardly remember any more. I think I’m supposed to start on antibiotics and low-dose aspirin the cycle before conception. Then I’ll have HCG shots during my luteal phase and progesterone shots once I get a ++. My husband and I are both itching for another baby. It’s crazy, really. However, we don’t feel like our family is “done.”
What would I do if I lost another baby . . . God forbid.
Please keep me in your thoughts over the next 24 hours. Thank you!