Post-miscarriage rollercoaster

Because I get so many hits on my site from others who are struggling with miscarriage, I feel compelled to continue blogging about my journey.  I have suffered back-to-back miscarriages this year, a spontaneous miscarriage on August 1 followed by a subchorionic hematoma on October 7 that terminated my pregnancy by October 15.  My DH and I decided to take a break from trying to conceive until we could perhaps discover a reason for the repeat back-to-back miscarriages.  I am now at a point where 66% of my pregnancies (2 of 3) have failed.  I am now considered high-risk for future miscarriage by my care providers.  Some care-providers don’t even sneeze at 2 miscarriages, but I’m glad that mine have been proactive even if they don’t agree on the causes and potential remedies for my problems.

On Thursday I had an herbal consultation with a direct-entry midwife (DEM).  She may become my midwife in the future, but for now we’re working to get my body back on track.  She suspects that dysfunction in one or more of my regulatory systems is preventing me from sustaining my pregnancies.  The systems/organs that seem to be out of whack include endocrine, thyroid, liver, and adrenal.  This lines up with the feedback I get from my chiropractor every week.  She has recommended an herbal tincture comprised of vitex, auralia berry, black cohosh, and a couple of other things.  I should stay on this treatment for three months before becoming pregnant.  Then the tincture would need to be adjusted as some of the herbs are not recommended for pregnancy. 

On Friday I finally had my follow-up appointment with the OB who managed my miscarriage.  She is not the careprovider with whom I planned to establish, but at this point, I’d rather continue care with her should I need assistance from a medical provider.  She’s a nice gal and very supportive of natural childbirth.  She helped my friend deliver her baby vaginally during a placental abruption.  Anyway, she recommended some blood tests (antibody and anticoagulant) and consented to testing my thyroid as well.  She doesn’t believe I have a luteal phase defect even though my last cycle was only 26-days long and I bled in the middle of the cycle.  (I bled during ovulation when I got pregnant this last time too.  The herbalist thinks I may have a progesterone deficiency.)  Instead of doing progesterone tests, she would recommend an edometrial biopsy.  Eeek!  I really haven’t been satisfied with the information I’ve found on the internet.  I’ll probably consent to one if I have another miscarriage, but I think I’ll give these herbs some time to work.  The OB does not recommend chromosomal testing at this time.  If anything conclusive arises from the blood tests, I will post the information here.

That’s it in a nutshell.  The holidays are tough – I have a number of friends who are pregnant or have just had new babies.  I expected to have a cute pregnant belly about now.  I never would have thought I’d be grieving two lost babies this Christmas.  I do have plenty to be thankful for – my amazing husband and lovely little girl, a good job, a loving family, wonderful friends, empowering and humbling advocacy work through ICAN, and a good life.